There once was a little girl who dreamed of love and her wedding day. These thoughts would dance through her mind as she would play in her world of make-believe. There were dress-up wedding gowns, stuffed animal guest list, plastic rings, and a prince charming yet to be named. She couldn’t wait for the day when she would stand before pale candlelight and say forever to the man her Lord created just for her; a man that was destined for her before the beginning of time. She wanted nothing more than to be loved, to be cherished, to be someone’s princess.
Sadly, in her desperate attempts to make this dream a reality she gave her heart away to men unworthy of her love. They took her heart and trampled on it. They used her as an object and failed to appreciate her loving heart. The girl found herself making excuses for these boys until she could no more. These boys left her feeling empty and unworthy of any sort of pursuit. She no longer felt like a princess.
Luckily, the girl turned back to her Lord and decided to give love a second chance. She confessed her sins and began a life of purity. She waited patiently and prayed daily for her future beloved.
The girl in the story is me; however, it is the story on many girls’ hearts. It is the dream of a perfect love story, a dream that is many times shattered due to mislead decisions, settling just to feel wanted by someone, and accepting a counterfeit love. This desire for true love in our hearts is real. There is no way to ignore it. Our hearts are hungry for it. The desire was placed there by our creator, our Father.
The theology of the body reveals the true, infinite love Christ has for each of us. It takes away the one dimensional scientific way people often look at the body and shows us that we were made and created for something far bigger. There is a purpose behind our image. The theology of the body unities the body and soul together with the plan God hopes for all of us.
I will never forget the first time I heard Christopher West speak. It was his recorded talk “Sexual Honesty.” I remember driving home from work one evening and putting his talk in my CD player. As I listened, I found myself nodding my head and saying yes to everything he was saying. Christopher West and theology of the body were speaking to my heart. Finally there was someone who understood the ache, the yearning, the desires, and the wounds.
After being fortunate enough to hear Christopher speak at World Youth 2008 in Sydney, Australia and again months later in San Diego, CA I knew that I had to attend the “Head and Heart” Immersion Course. I was a little hesitant because of the cost, but my heart was too hungry for more to not go. However, the teachings of John Paul II spoke to a place in my heart I didn’t allow people to go. It told a familiar love story I once dreamed of.
The “Head and Heart” Immersion was indeed one of the best things I have ever done in my life. It was a priceless experience. It was an investment into my soul. Instead of just getting a taste of the banquet, I got to sit at the banquet for a week and be immersed in it. It was different than anything I have ever experienced. I have never felt so wounded, but so loved at the same time. It makes you raw. There are no masks. I felt like it was just me, Jesus, and every decision I have ever made that affected my heart. I have never felt so empty, yet so beautiful, in my entire life. I was redeemed, restored, and I saw what God has really created me for.
Being a chastity speaker for the Diocese of Orange, CA has really opened my eyes to the wounds and destroyed spirits of young people, especially teen girls. The moment in my talk that always breaks my heart is when I get to the part where I describe the true worth each and every girl embodies. I explain to them that they are good enough just the way they are. Not only are they good enough, but the beauty that they each bear is a true and perfect creation of God. The eyes are truly a window to the soul and whenever I look out to my audience I see heartache and tears. These young women either have never heard that message before or it has been far too long since someone has said it to them. Being able to study 30 hours of theology of the body in the class setting has given me the tools to truly reach out and give hope to these young women. The hope, truth and love every person needs to hear and know.
Deep down in my heart, I still have the same desires as when I was a little girl. The stuffed animal guest list may have disappeared but I still dream of my love story. I believe all women do. It is not a coincidence that Taylor Swift’s hit song, “Love Story,” has been downloaded well over 5 million times worldwide. There is a new twist though to my love story that I wasn’t always aware of. God is apart of it now. He waits with me and prepares my heart for the man He has chosen for me. I pray in anticipation for the day when my Trinity with God, me, and my future spouse is complete. I am so grateful to play a part in this divine romance.
Megan Morgan is 25 years old and resides in Orange County, CA. She attended the TOBI Head & Heart Immersion course in June 2009 and plans on taking more courses at the Theology of the Body Institute. She currently works for Catholic Charities of Orange County and is a chastity speaker for the Diocese of Orange. This past summer Megan also organized a modest fashion show in Orange County to help show girls how they can dress with style and confidence while maintaining self-respect and modesty. Her passion in life is to bring back the dignity of women in society by emphasizing their self-worth, purity, and beauty. Megan and some friends recently started a “Heaven’s Song” book club in her area and she hopes to further her TOB education with more courses at the Institute in the near future.